Wednesday February 22nd; 7pm PST [February 22] practicalpenny Private; Readable by Silas, Emma, Amy. I don't think I've ever been more confused in my life. Kyle and Scott are both trying to date me. I really don't know what to do. I love them both. It's insane, I know, but I do. I care about them both so much and the thought of making a choice between them is... impossible. I think Kyle just wants our family back. He just wants that stability we had when it was just us and Rose. I understand that. I do. But Scott.. it's not about that with him. Maybe it's just different because we never got married, never had kids of our own, but I feel like he loves me for me. It's not just about what's convenient or comfortable. I just... when I'm with Kyle, I can't think. I can't breathe. I tell myself we're just friends and then he touches me and I forget everything. Not that I'm any less affected by Scott. Maybe I should make a pro/con list. I always feel better when I have a list. /Private. I have had an exhausting day. I can't believe it's only 7pm. I'm barely holding my eyes open. If only I could convince Rose that an early bedtime is a good idea. 9 +

[February 20] muinteoir Hell and damnation Someone gave me the flu. I feel like hell and when I just looked in the mirror, I scared myself. For those of you with children in my class at the primary, Mrs Frazzle has agreed to take my class tomorrow and Wednesday, and from there a substitute will be able to handle it. I'm going to go die now. No, I don't want any soup, potions, or anything else, before any of you ask. Mam will take care of all of that, as she's been here for an hour already. 10 +

[February 19] sundriedberries [warded to eddie carmichael] I realised when I was chatting with Megan today that I am overdue to give you an apology. I said some really horrible things about you just after you and Meg broke up, and I am so, so sorry about them. Regardless of any intentions I had in trying to make her feel better, I shouldn't have even thought them, let alone speak them. I'm sorry. If you'll forgive me, I'd love to have you and Meg over for dinner one night this week. Heidi will love to see you again, I know it. [end ward] So, even at 23 there are ways in which you still grow up, and learn to be a grown up. In this case, it's humbling. I have needed this weekend, in so many ways. I think that on Friday I'll be able to return to my new normal without feeling like my world is ending for a few days. 5 +

[February 17] sundriedberries [warded to harry] Thank you again for the tea and the things for Heidi. She adores the penguin and hasn't let it out of her sight since she got it. She has also named it Ree. Guess why. When do you want to reschedule our dinner? [end ward] [warded to megan] Heidi is doing much better now. I brought her home last night about ten or so, and she's been sleeping ever since. I didn't sleep much last night, I couldn't stop myself from constantly making sure she was all right. We decided to not send her to Chris's this weekend, so she can get as much rest as possible. I might go try to get an hour or so of sleep before she wakes up. added ten minutes later: Nope, that didn't work. She's up and she wants to cuddle. I guess it's the Wiggles for me, today. [end ward] I was supposed to be at the book signing and reading at Flourish and Blotts today, but due to my daughter's illness, I won't be. I was really looking forward to it, too. 28 +

[February 16] sundriedberries [warded to harry] I'm really very sorry, but we need to postpone our dinner until another night. Heidi's caught that horrible 'flu going around and I really need to stay with her. She usually sleeps about eight, but she keeps coughing and it's horrible and she obviously can't sleep so I'm up with her. I may take her to St Mungo's in the morning. I'm really sorry. [end ward] [warded to megan] I've had to postpone my date dinner with Harry. Heidi's got that horrid bug, and she has a fever and she's coughing so much I'm afraid she's going to be sick. I'm taking her to St Mungo's tomorrow. [end ward] There is nothing worse than my child being sick. 9 +

[February 15] muinteoir Yeah, so this week is strange. I haven't actually gotten sick, but so many of my students were that on Monday we didn't do much other than play some games. Don't worry, the focused mainly on spelling and maths, so it wasn't a completely wasted day. The strange thing is, I sort of miss the little anklebiters. Happy belated Valentine's Day, by the way. Mine was pretty excellent. How was yours? 2 +

[February 11] sundriedberries I've been hearing a lot about the charity auction this week, and there are a few gossip columnists calling those of us who have chosen to not participate out, undoubtedly feeling that by doing so, we would change our minds. I'm not changing my mind. When I was a child, my parents divorced. In the midst of all of that, the Muggle media treated me as if I were a commodity, a product to be traded and my misery to be exploited. As an adult, I have a choice, and have made the decision to not place myself into any situation where I would feel as if I am not treated as a human being. I realise that it is not the intention of those who have put this auction together, but I need to make the best situation for myself. I will be making a comparable donation to the children's home, and one in my daughter's name. 4 +

[February 10] fierysecond The fuck? I woke up this morning with a head that feels as if a tribe of very small men are hitting me with hammers. I've got better things to do than get sick. 10 +

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